Real meditation is always without object and is never the result of an activity, but Presence in the space of Consciousness. This natural, effortless Presence is meditation itself. The deeper dimensions of Alertness, the awakened Consciousness, the world of Silence, are beyond the mind. This Silence is not forced upon us by some concentration technique, but the indescribable but experienceable of living emptiness. Conscious existence in the space of Consciousness.
In your present, isolated state of consciousness, based upon your identification with your illusionary self, spatial consciousness is not present in your life, so you are unable to experience Consciousness free of forms. But you have read a lot about this subject, so you wish to bring things beyond forms and shapes under the control of your Ego, in order to stabilize the Ego and make it permanent. You have read or heard somewhere that meditation is the best method to that end, so you have began to meditate diligently.
In your present, isolated state of consciousness, based upon your identification with your illusionary self, spatial consciousness is not present in your life, so you are unable to experience Consciousness free of forms. But you have read a lot about this subject, so you wish to bring things beyond forms and shapes under the control of your Ego, in order to stabilize the Ego and make it permanent.
You have read or heard somewhere that meditation is the best method to that end, so you have began to meditate diligently. But you are approaching meditation the way you do with other objects of the outside world. You believe that meditation is also an activity of the mind, a concentration on an objects (e. g. a burning candle), or your own respiration or a mantra.
Meditation is therefore something that you perform yourself. Through active meditation you wish to reach a higher state of the Mind, which is expected to give you happiness, satisfaction and enlightenment.
You start to practice meditation as an individual self, as an Ego. You make efforts to tranquilize your mind. This activity may be successful up to a certain level, when you suppress your thoughts and emotions with your willpower, reaching transitory peace in you. That state will be lost immediately, when you stop concentrating, meditating, and no longer sustain the effort, as your mind returns to its usual activities, the old pre-conditioned patterns.
Meditation therefore has not brought you the lasting peace you had been longing for and you had read so much about, the peace independent of your mind that reinforces your existence in the world.
Your attempts at meditation are futile because real meditation is, by nature, effortless. It does not create an artificial quiet, but allows the deeper dimensions of Alertness to surface. This is the deep internal Silence that constitutes the real core of man.
The spatial awareness thus acquired remains with you after meditation, for longer and longer periods of time. You will eventually no longer need meditation, as the deeper dimensions of Alertness are there with you, so every moment in your life will be meditative.
What you should do is the following: allow the deeper dimensions of Alertness surface in you, so that you are able to recognize yourself as the eternal light of Consciousness. Then all effort, desire and want of your Ego vanish, you give up the efforts to control things around you.
This is a perfectly relaxed moment, your submission to the moment, the Now. This is the easiest thing in the world, it does not require any effort and concentration, as this is the natural state of your existence. To be and to do nothing else.
But you are still in the moment of waking up, living in the world of rock hard forms and shapes. You feel that these words are true. But this is still not your personal experience, so it is worthless, or even dangerous for you, as you are only able to interpret them with your mind.
In your present state of consciousness it is almost unimaginable for you to experience the deeper dimensions of Alertness, as you have been conditioned by your parents and teachers to become “somebody” since your early childhood. You have been conditioned to look for and find happiness and the objective of your life in the outside world around you.
As an illusionary self, you find the idea of “To be and to do nothing else” is one of the greatest mysteries. You believe that if you do not act, just sit in your place, mulling over things, you will never find out who you are, and what your chances are in the world of shapes and forms. In order to consolidate your identity, you have to be active.
It is very difficult not to do anything, because you are used to always doing something. Your parents have brought you up in the belief that your actions determine who you are. Your personal identity is rooted in your actions and the results of those actions. Your personal history is the chronicle of your actions and achievements.
The idea of being active is therefore a product of your conditioned mind, your Ego. Ambitions to acquire, to achieve something all work as motivations for action in the Ego-dominated mind. The desire to control, to manage are also powerful urges to act.
As you have seen, these very same forces are the ones that spur you to meditate. It is, nevertheless, not a bad phenomenon, as active meditation is the first step towards real meditation. Active meditation consolidates the outermost dimension of Alertness, that, is attention, in you.
Source: Waking Times